Growing up, a pain process where we all are unable to avoid .

Recently, i miss my cute and special teacher Hii Shiun Houng. How i wish i can sit in her class once again. If i m given the chance to go back to my primary school, without hesitating, i will definitely go back, although i m frequently punished by my dear teacher. Hii Shiun Houng, i just want to tell u a truth, i reli miss the class conducted by u. Too bad, i lost my soul of childness. Never be able to find it back, it's beyond my power, it's GOD Will, i cant violate HIS Will. Besides missing primary life, i miss my F4 and F5 life too. I miss Annie, i miss Siew Choon, i miss Soon Mei, i miss Li Wenn, i miss Wei Nii, i miss Jaswin, i miss Peggy,i miss Desmon.... i miss everything in F5. Somebody shakes me in the earthquake mode asking me to wake up to face the world of reality where i need to face everything lonely. Telling me it's time for u to grow up, be a responsible person, no more fooling around. Advising me u gotta go in ur own way, it's time to let go of ur dear friends. And on tat day , i lost my soul of happiness. I really miss Desmon's drawing, drawing of the elements. I miss Jaswin, she is my backbone. I m just a baby starting to learn how to walk conducted by her. I miss Soon Mei's violence. How i wish i can have her back to give me a punch on my face so tat i can faint and not need to wake up from my dream to face the world of reality. I miss Peggy as she is the only one who will always appreciate the joke i tell her. How i wish i m a heartless person, never be able to find out the pain of parting. Soon Mei and Li Wenn, u guys left me behind, how could u all do this to me? I m trying to catch u two up. Why both of u have the extra wings to fly so high and left me behind without looking back? I lost in the middle of the crossroad, trying to figure out which roads have been taken by both of u. U two r so mean, why dun u two left some clues for me? U two left without a sound. I really lost my soul, unable to take the next move. I guess , it's what we call growing up. Now i realize growing up is a pain process where we all cant avoid.