Big Bang, Let me hear your voice

Growing up, a pain process where we all are unable to avoid .

Recently, i miss my cute and special teacher Hii Shiun Houng. How i wish i can sit in her class once again. If i m given the chance to go back to my primary school, without hesitating, i will definitely go back, although i m frequently punished by my dear teacher. Hii Shiun Houng, i just want to tell u a truth, i reli miss the class conducted by u. Too bad, i lost my soul of childness. Never be able to find it back, it's beyond my power, it's GOD Will, i cant violate HIS Will. Besides missing primary life, i miss my F4 and F5 life too. I miss Annie, i miss Siew Choon, i miss Soon Mei, i miss Li Wenn, i miss Wei Nii, i miss Jaswin, i miss Peggy,i miss Desmon.... i miss everything in F5. Somebody shakes me in the earthquake mode asking me to wake up to face the world of reality where i need to face everything lonely. Telling me it's time for u to grow up, be a responsible person, no more fooling around. Advising me u gotta go in ur own way, it's time to let go of ur dear friends. And on tat day , i lost my soul of happiness. I really miss Desmon's drawing, drawing of the elements. I miss Jaswin, she is my backbone. I m just a baby starting to learn how to walk conducted by her. I miss Soon Mei's violence. How i wish i can have her back to give me a punch on my face so tat i can faint and not need to wake up from my dream to face the world of reality. I miss Peggy as she is the only one who will always appreciate the joke i tell her. How i wish i m a heartless person, never be able to find out the pain of parting. Soon Mei and Li Wenn, u guys left me behind, how could u all do this to me? I m trying to catch u two up. Why both of u have the extra wings to fly so high and left me behind without looking back? I lost in the middle of the crossroad, trying to figure out which roads have been taken by both of u. U two r so mean, why dun u two left some clues for me? U two left without a sound. I really lost my soul, unable to take the next move. I guess , it's what we call growing up. Now i realize growing up is a pain process where we all cant avoid.

恐惧中度过

最近我在精神上真的很不行了。我每天都在恐慌当中度过。我讨厌的事物似乎想甩也甩不开。尽然甩不开了，我尝试去克服它，可是我怎么努力，似乎都行不通。我的背上有一块沉重的石头，我想要把它搬离，可是以我的能力，我看不行，需要别人的帮助。找来了好友帮忙，还是行不通。是那块石头太固执了还是我还没发出我百分之百的功力呢？我真的是败给它了。它有时使我很恐惧很恐惧，恐惧到我很不想活了。。。

或许。。。

或许上帝让我朋友一个个离开我是为了要让我学会离别呢？或许上帝要我走这条艰难的路是要考验我的忍耐力呢？或许上帝让我中到国民服务是为了要让我先习惯社会的险恶呢？或许上帝把我留在f6是为了让我飞更高呢？或许上帝从我那里拿走什么东西时机一到他就会还给我呢？或许年轻时潦倒，未来一帆风顺也说不定呢？或许年轻时顺顺遂遂，未来潦倒也说不定呢？人生中有许多或许。但我只知道我要跟着我的心走。不管情况有多不乐观，我也要咬牙度过。靠别人不如靠自己，或许现在我的双脚被绑住了，不能走了，但只要我的手脚还健在，有一天我也是会走的。也许到了那天我不是用走的了，而是用飞的了。现在只是时间上的问题了。到时，机票，车票，船票通通将会是单程票。

On this day, God wants you to know... ...

.........that it's time you let go. Yes, of course, you want to control so everything happens in just the way you want it. But at the end of the day, we control nothing, - it's all in God's hands, - has always been, and will always be. So, do what you can, and then let go, and let God handle the rest. I like this quotes. Quotes from God wants you to know application via facebook. Guys, go to try it and get encouragement from there.