Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Busy Life. Get Started.

Busy, away, available, offline. Sounds familiar 2 u guys rite? Msn maniac would know it. I always put available in my msn. Juz 2 let my friends know i m ever ready 2 chat wif u guys through msn. Msn is such a convenient tool 4 me 2 keep in touch wif my machi, my buddy. But, tis 2 years, i will change my status 2 busy. No longer available 4 u guys. I wan 2 concentrate in my studies. I oredi make my mind 2 stay f6. No turning back , no regreting. Fight ! Fight! Fight! Fight till STPM! 4 flat is waiting 4 me if i work hard, pray hard. It's going 2 be my busy life tis 2 years. Get started. Study hard, study smart. U guys wait 4 me 4 another 2 years. Till then , i'll be set free.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

少了一样东西的油站。

老实说,PLKN毕业回来后,我总觉得世界变了。变的是,朋友一个个离开了,连我最要好的朋友都要离开我去读私人学院了。年头时我曾经和我最要好的朋友,顺美一起进圣心去读f6(post SPM)。因为要进国民服务了,我读一半半就离开了。我的离开使顺美在那间学校也混不下去了,也跟着我的脚步离开了。不同的是,我们离开后的去向并不一样。我去了民都鲁当兵而她留在诗巫打工去了。后来f6正式开课了,我还在当兵,还没毕业,顺美只好自己再去上f6。在当兵时我一直被奖学金的事情搞到一个头两个大。我所请的奖学金我都没能得到。我也因此在兵营里常常闷闷不乐,过得并不算快乐。想打个电话向朋友诉苦也不能。不是没时间就是公共电话排长龙。JPA 奖学金的名单出了,我连打回去的勇气都没有,因为我知道我是不可能会得到的了。我在兵营里不断受到打击。后来,我决定要去读f6了,哪里知道我又收到晴天霹雳的消息。我妈在我要毕业的那几天打来了,她告诉我顺美决定再次离开f6,去读私人学院了。我很伤心,我很想留她,可是我不能阻止她去追求她的梦想。PLKN毕业后,我在家里休息了两个星期终于上学去了。这次回去我真的要好好努力读书了。只要熬过这一年半,未来的日子将会是美好的。上学的第一天我并不能完全习惯。老师所教的东西,我消化的很吃力。放学时,我像往常一样走到学校对面的油站去等我妈。油站还是跟年头时一样,站在那里等父母的学生还是那几个,一点都没变。可是,我总觉得少了一样东西。少的是顺美。还记得年头时,我们一起站在油站等父母,我们还有说有笑的,我还对她说我以后再也不要进圣心了。从小到大,每次放学我一定和她在一起等父母。她的离开让我顿时很不习惯。下个月她将要离开诗巫去追求她的梦想了,我也只能祝福她学成归来。。。而我会留在f6奋斗,也学习习惯那没有她的校园生活。我不能老是依赖她,毕竟她以后也是要嫁人的。她的离开真的使油站少了一样东西。。。

Monday, June 21, 2010

Words to my dear friends ....

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."- Anon

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Walk beside me and be my friend."- Albert Camus

"Friendship is one mind in two bodies."- Mencius

"If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I would be at the bottom to catch them."- Anon

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."- Anon

"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart."- Anon

“When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.”

"Together forever, never apart. Maybe in distance, but never in heart.”

"Promise you won't forget me, because if I thought you would, I'd never leave."~Winnie the Pooh~

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."~Walter Winchell~

"If I had one gift that I could give you, my friend, it would be the ability to see yourself as others see you, because only then would you know how extremely special you are."~B.A. Billingsly~

"A true friend is someone who knows there's something wrong even when you have the biggest smile on your face."

A friend
is one who knows us, but loves us anyway. -- Fr. Jerome Cumming


Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends. -- Cindy Lew

Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure. -- Jewish Saying

"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you." -- Elbert Hubbard

The best way to destroy an enemy is to make him a friend.-- Abraham Lincoln

Hold a true friend with both your hands. -- Nigerian Proverb

"A faithful friend is the medicine of life." -- Apocrypha

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.-- Anonymous

"Friendship multiplies the good of life and divides the evil." -- Baltasar Gracian


"Friendship needs no words..." -- Dag Hammarskjold.

"Friends are the sunshine of life." -- John Hay

One who looks for a friend without faults will have none. -- Hasidic Saying

Friends are needed both for joy and for sorrow. -- Samuel Paterson

Friendship is the golden thread that ties the heart of all the world.-- Friendship doubles our joy and divides our grief.-- Swedish proverb

A friend hears the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails.-- Anonymous

Plant a seed of friendship; reap a bouquet of happiness. -- Lois L. Kaufman

"There is nothing worth the wear of winning, but laughter and the love of friends." -- Hillaire Belloc

"The rain may be falling hard outside, But your smile makes it all alright. I'm so glad that you're my friend. I know our friendship will never end." -- Robert Alan

"Wishing to be friends is quick work, but friendship is a slow-ripening fruit." -- Aristotle

"Friendship is essentially a partnership." -- Aristotle

"Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe unto him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up." -- The Bible: Ecclesiastes 4:9-10.

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost" -- Charles Caleb Colton

"A friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

"A friend is a person with whom I may be sincere." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Friends show their love in times of trouble..." -- Euripides

"One loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives." -- Euripides

"A good friend is my nearest relation." -- Thomas Fuller

"No man is useless while he has a friend." -- Robert Louis Stevenson

"A friend is a present you give yourself." -- Robert Louis Stevenson

A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world. -- Leo Buscaglia

Advice from your friends in like the weather, some of it is good, some of it is bad.-Anonymous

Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty. -- Sicilian Proverb

Good friends are good for your health.-Irwin Sarason

The language of friendship is not words but meanings. -- Henry David Thoreau

True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity, before it is entitled to the appellation. -- George Washington

In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.-Martin Luther King, Jr.

A true friend is one who overlooks your failures and tolerates your success!-- Doug Larson

Do not protect yourself by a fence, but rather by your friends. -- Czech. Proverb

True friendship never ends.







My life is sucks without FRIENDS !

You'll always be there for me.
You're...
My Friend,
my companion,
through good times and bad
my friend, my buddy,
through happy and sad,
beside me you stand,
beside me you walk,
you're there to listen,
you're there to talk,
with happiness, with smiles,
with pain and tears,
I know you'll be there,
throughout the years!


Saturday, June 19, 2010

Life din't work out like what i plan.

2010 has been a hard year for me. I have gone through so much suffer and i know it's not going to be end.
January:
I'm still enjoying my life without homework , without schooling , without teacher's nagging.... Just.... i m a full-time housewife. I plan 2 find a job. But , no ideal job 4 me. i wan 2 wrk in Popular but they r not employing part-time worker. Mom asking me 2 work at supermarket, but i reluctant, knwing it's gonna be a hard job with low job-pay. So, i end up going 2 f6 in SHS. I m being forced by my mom. Mom:" If u dun wan 2 work, u go 2 study f6 ! " No ideal job 4 me, i have 2 go f6. Nitemare started from here. 1st time, my life dint goes as i plan.

February:
In Jan, i enrolled 4 motorbike lesson. I m old enough 2 study motorbike. Wat a shame ! I attend my law lesson in Jan. I plan 2 take my law test in Jan too, but my name can't be updated. My precious time has been wasted. Till Feb,i can onli take the test. 2nd time, my life dint goes as i plan.

March:
I plan 2 done my motorbike lesson and take the motorbike test before i get into ns. But, becoz of tat damn shit updating name, i can't make it. I have 2 wait till i graduate from ns. I have 2 renew my L license again. It's quite troublesome. 3rd time, my life dint goes as i plan.

April:
In the kem there, i try my very best 2 adapt the life there. The timetable in there is packing. 1st week i reach there, i m unable 2 eat. Everything goes 2 my mouth, i vomit it. I thought i have Anorexia + depression. My stomach is hungry, but my mind keep telling me not 2 eat it. One of my frenz was send 2 unit discipline 2 be punished. She herself dint even realise tat she has done smthing wrong. Her case make me even more depressed. I will suddenly scare + worry in tat kem. I m worried tat i will becum juz like her , get punished without warning and without knwing wat was my fault. It has oredi been a hard life in there, then comes the BAD news. 16/4, lists of offer 2 the matriculation r out. I phone my frenz, i m disappointed coz i dint get it. Wat a April Fool ! I plan 2 get matric. I dint count on JPA. My way 2 brighter future is blocked. 4th time,my life dint goes as i plan.

May:
My frenz help me 2 do rayuan of matric. This month, lists of offer JPA and matric rayuan will come out. Again, i m disappointed by the news. I dint get anything. I m forced 2 get back 2 f6. I plan 2 strive 4 my brighter future by skipping f6. I knw f6 is a hard way 2 succeed and yet time-consuming. But, no money , say gudbye 2 private. 5th time, my life dint goes as i plan.

June:
Finally, i m set free from ns. My frenz and my mom have been busy helping me 2 do rayuan of JPA. I reli reli reli hope tat i can get JPA 2 local u. But, it's a doomsday 4 me. I dint make it. I have disappointed my mom and my frenz. They have been busy helping me but it's all going wrong direction. I plan not 2 get back 2 f6 anymore, but now it all ruin. I reli nid 2 wrk hard 2 accept SHS as my 2nd home. 6th time, my life dint goes as i plan.

2010 is reli an unlucky year 4 me. I wan 2 say TQ 2 my mom and my fenz 4 helping me and supporting me when i m down. It's beyond our power.Life din't work out like what i plan. Wat to do?

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

快!快去祭拜屈原!快去扫屈原的墓!不要只顾着吃粽子。。。


16/6/10,大家端午节快乐!老实说,端午节是屈原的死忌,并不是我们享受那香喷喷粽子的日子,更不是我们比赛划龙舟的日子。包粽子是为了投进江里避免屈原的尸体被鱼吃。我们吃来干嘛???难不成我们是鱼,会伤害屈原尸体的鱼???比赛划龙舟来干嘛???还不快点划龙舟去找屈原的尸体!!!我在这奉劝各位快点去祭拜屈原,快点去扫屈原的墓吧。。。放下你手中的粽子吧。。。吃太多也是会肥的。。。wahaha.... XD 个人发神经,不要当真!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

走,我们一起去翻哈佛的墙。。。


F4那年,小学同学,Ong Wan Yee又回到跟我同班。不同的是她带来了新朋友。这位新朋友跟Ong混的很熟,而我又跟Ong不错,自然而然我也跟她混的很熟。她就是刘俐妏,我大姐。。。她是一个很有个性的人,又很尽责。我们两个有一个共同点,那就是爱发白日梦。我们在班上有着永远聊不完的话题。有一天,我又开始在她面前发白日梦。发完白日梦,我转过去对她说:“俐妏啊。。。我以后要变成全世界最有钱的首富,拥有自己的国际公司,每一个国家都有我们的分行。我也要去哈佛读书。。。”我以为她会笑我,哪里知道,她也参于我的疯狂。她对我说:“你是CEO,我是副CEO而阿美是我们的秘书长。你进哈佛,我就去剑桥。。。” P.S. :阿美是暴力女,也是跟我们混得很熟的三剑客。 我告诉俐妏:“ok ok,我是CEO,你是副CEO,阿美秘书长。。。哇哈哈。。。呃。。。我觉得哈佛比剑桥好诶。。。”俐妏就说:“那我就跟你一起去哈佛吧。。。” 哈佛???是人人都想挤进去的名校。我们阿狗阿猫是不可能进得了的。我们两个实在太矮了,而哈佛的墙又太高了。。。我们的哈佛梦离我们太远了。。。我也只能对俐妏说:“走,我们一起去翻哈佛的墙。。。”

Monday, June 14, 2010

Sorry, i have misjudged u. Gossiping is TERRIBLE !

In the kem , there is a guy who wears black rectangle spectacles. He is from Kompeni Alpha. He is in the same class wif me for class integrasi. Somebody tell me tat he is a smart student. He gets gud result in SPM. One day, my frenz busy gossiping, so , i join them. From them, i get to knw in kompeni alpha , there is a guy put his kissing photo in fb. I get the wrong message, i thought he is the guy. Then , i started 2 contempt him. Smart guy but misbehaved. Although get gud result in SPM, we r shocked by his behavior. After graduate, i finally get bek 2 my home. Home sweet home. Long time dint online, i must keep on onlining before holidays off. U knw, i m computer maniac. Can u imagine life without PC in the kem? It's sucks ! Through fb, i realise tat tat guy we gossip abt is not him. I have misjudged him. Sorry, i have misjudged u ..... The biggest tend in the kem is GOSSIPING. Gossiping is reli terrible. Guys, never gossip about others. This is my advice 2 u all !!!

The most popular song in NS.

Lady GaGa : Bad Romance

Caught in a bad romance
Caught in a bad romance
Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma, Roma-ma
GaGa, ooh la la
Want your bad romance
Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma, Roma-ma
GaGa, ooh la la
Want your bad romance
I want your ugly, I want your disease
I want your everything as long as it's free
I want your love, love, love, love
I want your love
I want your drama, the touch of your hand
I want your leather studded kiss in the sand
I want your love, love, love, love
I want your love
(Love, love, love, I want your love)
You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want your bad, your bad romance
I want your love and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and all your lover's revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Caught in a bad romance
Caught in a bad romance
Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma, Roma-ma
GaGa, ooh la la
Want your bad romance
I want your horror, I want your design
'Cause you're a criminal as long as your mine
I want your love, love, love, love
I want your love
I want your psycho, your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window baby your sick
I want your love, love, love, love
I want your love
(Love, love, love, I want your love)
You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
('Cause I'm a free bitch, baby)
I want a bad, bad romance
I want your love and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and all your lover's revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Caught in a bad romance
Caught in a bad romance
Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma, Roma-ma
GaGa, ooh la la
Want your bad romance
Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma, Roma-ma
GaGa, ooh la la
Want your bad romance
Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it, move that bitch crazy
Walk walk fashion baby
Work it, move that bitch crazy
Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it, move that bitch crazy
Walk walk passion baby
Work it, I'm a free bitch baby
I want your love and I want your revenge
I want your love, I don't wanna be friends
Je veux ton amour et je veux ton revenge
Je veux ton amour
I don't want to be friends
(I want your bad romance, I want your bad romance)
I don't wanna be friends
(I want your bad romance, I want your bad romance)
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don't want to be friends
(I want your bad romance, I want your bad romance)
I don't wanna be friends
(I want your bad romance)
(Caught in a bad romance)
I want your bad romance
I want your love and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your love and all your lover's revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Want your bad romance
Caught in a bad romance
Want your bad romance
Want your bad romance
Caught in a bad romance
Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah
Roma, Roma-ma
GaGa, ooh la la
Want your bad romance

When everyone receives their handphone on saturday, my dorm will becum noisy again. Noisy coz full of Lady Gaga BAD ROMANCE. I tell myself : " Oh Boy , Oh Boy, tonite i m going 2 sleep wif Lady Gaga's voice around my ears....AGAIN!!!!" I cant stand it anymore. Reli funny eh ... they r kinda addicted 2 bad romance . Wat is so gud abt BAD ROMANCE a? It has becum a tend in kem similajau. Their ringtones r all BAD ROMANCE. Sick of Bad Romance....Definitely, no more Bad Romance in the future!!!Bad Romance r banned from my life !!!

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Peggy's Spongebob


Before Peggy leave for swinburne, i buy tis 4 her. I m going 2 miss her in the future. I knw she likes spongebob. So, i buy tis love-shaped pillow wif spongebob on it 2 express my love 2 her. I hope Peggy wont forget me when she goes 2 swinburne. The pillow = me. She can kiss it , she can droop saliva on it.... i dont mind, juz dont forget 2 protect it.

A song i learn in NS - Hari ini Kurasa Bahagia

Hari in ku rasa bahagia
Berkumpul bersama saudara seiman
Tuhan Yesus t'lah satukan kita
Tanpa memandang di antara kita

Bergandingan tangan dalam kasih
Dalam satu hati
Berjalan dalam terang kasih
Tuhan Kau sahabatku, kau saudaraku
Tiada yang dapat memisahkan kita

when i attend kelas kerohanian every week , Thursday and Friday in NS , they will sing this song. I will sing aloud and think of my old buddies in sibu. They r far far away from me. I miss them so much. Life without them is sucks! I juz wan 2 tell them i LOVE them so so much ! i cant wait 2 reunite wif them !

The reason i hate SHS.


Honestly, i m oredi used 2 the life in st.e. I fool around wif a bunch of girls from f1 till f5. It has been 5 years. Suddenly, ask me 2 face a bunch of guys , i m dumb. It's not easy for me to adapt the life in SHS. It's reli a nitemare 2 me. Terrible, horrible and vegetable. I choose physics class, coz my dream started from here. My classmates in physics class almost all r guys. I reli dun knw how 2 communicate wif guys. On my birthday, our responsible monitor , Polycarp gifted a cake 2 me. I reli dun knw wat 2 do at tat time. I m dumb at tat moment. In st.e , nobody did tis 2 me before. Nobody will concern about my D.O.B. They sing birthday song 2 me. But, i reli dun knw wat should i do.No tq from me, no appreciation from me, i juz continue 2 do my work. It's an AWKWARD moment .... Soli ya , guys , i dint mean it. i m not tat 大牌。。。juz i dont knw how 2 express my appreciation in front a bunch of guys.

Before going 2 NS.

Before going 2 NS, i m studying in SHS. Hell f6 , full of god damn homework , oral, oral, oral , che che ,che. All this are my nitemare. i m kinda phobia 2 it . i just want 2 run away from it . I m reluctant 2 face all this. So, i told myself, i m more willing to go for NS. i can't wait to go for NS. i want to play flying fox, rakit , kembara halangan .... all those stuff. Who knows..... when i reach Kem Similajau , Bintulu.... another nitemare starts.....